Leslie Low, oh Well

I just want you to be happy.. Thats all I yearn for..

2011-06-02T20:10:00.000-07:00

I've never left Hun.. Never..

2011-06-02T20:08:00.000-07:00

Before you judge, look at yourself in the mirror first!

2011-05-23T16:09:00.000-07:00

Oh ya, empty promises by you are seen by me, whereby i'm not one to talk about you. But if compared, at least I do not judge others as you do.

2011-05-23T16:06:00.000-07:00

Seriously!! Who the fuck are you to bother about my life. Get your life straight before judging mine! GTH!!

2011-05-23T15:56:00.000-07:00

我愛你，你愛他，他愛她

2011-01-15T13:18:00.001-08:00

當我看見你傷心，我依然也傷心。

2011-01-15T13:17:00.000-08:00

我喜歡，不！我愛你。

2011-01-15T13:16:00.001-08:00

Who am I? I don't really know anymore.

2011-01-09T18:43:00.000-08:00

I won't get sick of you just because of you being a crybaby. Dumb girl!

2010-12-26T12:00:00.001-08:00

I wanna be a Billionaire, so fucking bad!

2010-12-25T07:03:00.000-08:00

The power of unconditional love.

2010-12-24T16:45:00.000-08:00

我爱你，无条件的爱上你!

2010-12-24T16:40:00.000-08:00

我很想妳，可是又害怕見到妳。

2010-10-13T15:05:00.000-07:00

妳還再我的腦海理選鑽著。

2010-10-01T12:29:00.000-07:00

Hey!

2010-09-29T09:59:00.000-07:00

To that someone who has been in my mind all these while. Though we couldn't be friends no more, I'm really glad that you've found someone who actually changed you. I'm happy for you. Whenever I see that dino plush doll at the store, I would think of you. I often ask myself whether shud I buy it for you as a gift and send it up to your house being anonymous. But I guess that wouldn't change anything. What I've did was terrible. Well, I just hope that you'll be happy and all. Best wishes.

cc........

到最後，在我的腦海里的還是妳。

2010-09-09T15:48:00.000-07:00

=)

2010-09-06T12:37:00.000-07:00

Life has never been happier for me till now. I finally feel contended with my life, I've learnt to approach everything in a different perspective, step in other's shoes and think about how would they feel. Things will be better like this. Less confusing.

Marriage

2010-08-26T13:55:00.000-07:00

I read this from a best friend's blog. It actually pretty much applies on my buddy and his wife. I hope things will be better for them..

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

I am the perfection of life, I am grateful to be.

2010-08-15T09:37:00.000-07:00

Chiong!!

2010-08-14T13:52:00.000-07:00

Chiong Chiong Chiong!!! Have to earn big bucks!! Want more Moolah!! Buy all the stuffs that I want now!! Camera(S), Camera's accessories, iPad, Car, Condo(S), Properties.. All the shits anyone could ever think of... I WANT THEM ALL.. Most wanted is to let my parents live a good life after they retire.... Go Go GO!!! Lets GO!!

Great

2010-08-10T11:17:00.000-07:00

Things are going smoothly right now. I hope things would get even better. I'll be there. One day. Not for anyone to see. For myself. I wanna be better than how i am right now. But to be better, I need to learn more stuffs, more informations, MORE MORE MORE!! In order to live my dream. For My family and I to be happy. For all to be happy!

Cheers to all who's living up to your dream now.
Keep pushing on to those who aren't there yet.
Lastly, the opposite of Love is Hate. NOT fear.

We are who we are today because of the past relationships.

2010-08-05T10:55:00.001-07:00

I'm no Clark Kent, I'm Leslie Low. Therefore I'm not Superman.

2010-08-05T10:52:00.003-07:00

Its about time

2010-08-05T10:34:00.000-07:00

Mina!! Hisashiburi desu ne?

Well.. Gotten rid of my emo self already.. I don't know if anyone is reading my blog at all ? LOL!
Anyway.. Its almost a month since all that rubbish happened.. She's gone for good.. I'm living well on my own.. Well, it isn't like i was living with her anyway.. But those time were memorable.. Moving on..

Well.. I'm outta job for the moment.. Not working for my uncle anymore.. I'm heading back to being a real estate agent.. Well, not like i'm an official one before.. If anyone were to be wondering how am I nowadays.. I'm good.. Really..

Love is no longer in my dictionary.. The love I have is reserved for my parents and my closest friends.. They've been with me throughout the bad times of my fucking life.. They wouldn't fail to care when they themselves are having problems.. Great nakamas aren't they?

Right now, Live and Play hard.. As I wouldn't know what will happen to me in the near future..

Tho I'm no Christian or Catholic, I do pray to God who's watching over him too..
God bless him, that precious lil thing.. Keep him from harm and all.. Thank God.. Amen..

I've loved deep and got hurt deep, hurt others deep too.. I'm sorry for those who I've hurt.. I don't mean it.. I swear, I just don't wanna hurt ya'll any further.. Those whom I've loved, I hope you would be happy..

God bless everyone.. Amen..

Leslie Low signing out.
Oyasumi nasai.. Sayonara!

Guess what?

2010-07-12T01:51:00.001-07:00

Guess what? After all that happened. I wonder IF we could ever be friends anymore.

Even now you're being biased just because my friend was in the club and apparently he did something wrong towards you. I know its normal for you to get angry and stuff. But he's already apologizing. WTF you want more? Just forget about it. Everyone does stupid things when they're drunk. You, Me, Everyone does.

So ya. All I can say is that even we can't be together, I still do cherish this friendship of ours. If you don't wanna be friends anymore. I would agree to it. I tried talking to you, but it seems useless. You're just ignorant to me. This pissed me off. Seriously. But what can i do? Nothing at all. We're just like strangers now. I guess.

I had plans for you like for the whole of this month. KL trip, your flea market and all. But too many things happened. What else can I look forward to? Nothing.

Go carry on being pissed off with me and all. Think that I'm a jerk, my friends are all jerks. Up to you. As long as you're happy. I wouldn't care. I don't have to anyway. You've got your boys around you. Who might be richer or better to you in some ways. Go be happy and all. I'll just vanish from your life soon enough. =)

.....

2010-06-12T00:51:00.000-07:00

It just seems to me everything you do doesn't put me into considerations..
I'm either the last or not there at all..

Nikon D90

2009-10-28T10:28:00.000-07:00

I am So So So in love with my Nikon D90..
Thanks mom, for the advanced birthday pressy.. Loves!!

Leslie

Lost

2009-10-26T06:20:00.000-07:00

I've lost you since who knows when.. its too late for regrets now..
I hope you'll be happy..

Leslie

. . . .

2009-10-15T02:19:00.001-07:00

I'm bored.. yawns..

01/10/09

2009-09-30T13:02:00.000-07:00

Life have been the same since the last post.
I'm kinda like lost in time recently.
Sleeping in the morning, waking up at night.

Just bought wii Fit for my wii, its a little but not so light piece of i don't know how to describe. Anyway, it was fun, played with it for a little while. Perspire like crazy. Good way to BURN Calories.

I'm BORED.
Thats why I'm blogging.
DAMN!

Boredom kills!

2009-09-10T15:00:00.000-07:00

Can't sleep since 2 am.. slept at 8 pm, woke up at 2 am.. wth ? something's wrong with my sleeping hours..

Well.. its feels kinda bad to have lost someone who u once loved. Especially when you guys didn't even get together when there was a chance. I know how it feels cuz i been through that. Well, its kinda funny. Going out, wishing you could see her again on the streets like how co-incidentally in the past. Searching everywhere to find a slight chance to contact her again, but found none. Lost her Phone contact and her MSN. Damn. This kinda sux alot. Totally. Well, i remembered once told her, if there was a chance to hold her hands once more. I would hold on to it forever. Sounds like I'm lying about it. But i was serious at that time. I hope i can see her again. Well, maybe to try to get back with her or not, we'll see how it goes ya? But i really miss that friend of mine.

Damn, its so warm.. i just had a shower few hours ago. i'm covered in sweat already.

Oh well. Didn't wake up alone yesterday. I guess its still the same, we aren't ready yet.

Leslie signing off~
"She's gone, i didn't know it was so long~"

If you......

2009-09-08T02:09:00.000-07:00

If you claimed that you love me,
why do you:
- Not know what i like most?
- Not know what i dislike most?
- Still care for the person you once loved?
- Not know that i only want a person only for myself?
- Not know that you are being selfish?
- Still go out with other guys who you claim is just a Date?
- Not know that i'm selfish as well?
- Not remember everything i say?
- Not know that i need someone who will listen to me and REMEMBERS what i say?
- Still tell me that you love your singlehood?
- Not know that i love my singlehood?
- Not know that i love surprises?
- Fail to surprise me?
- Get pissed off with me when i said sorry?
- Not forgive me?
- Not know that i was trying very hard to love you as well?
- Not know that i don't wanna get hurt as well?
- Not know that i love you as well? But i just can't bring myself to get into relationship right now?
- Not know that EVERYTHING is about YOU YOU YOU, not US US US?
- Not know that your US refers to You and Him?

I know i'm being selfish for these words. But i hope you would understand. I'm SORRY.

New Toy

2009-09-01T01:19:00.000-07:00

Woo.. Got my New iPhone 3GS.. Haa.. Its White, Nice~ but.. high maintainance.. LOL!~ anyway.. Started jailbreaking and insalling games and applications.. Super duper speedy little thing.. Love it~ =)

It was another L4D night last night againn... LOL~ great game with great peoples..

I haven't been updating my crappy blog for awhile now.. anyway.. it feels kinda bad to be lacking of things.. altho i may look like i don't lack of anything.. well.. in fact.. i do.. i really do~
Well.. Lack of Money, Job and Love. Thats pretty common to everyone these days.

LOVE - Walking down the street, seeing couples in love, made me kinda jealoused and asking myself.. Why ain't i as happy when i was in love?

MONEY - Seeing people buying things without thinking. Carrying so much cash with them anywhere they go. Made me asking myself, when can i make 10K per month? Its tough, but there is still a way. But WHEN!? is the question.

JOB - Well, as many would have known. I'm not working already, due to my studies. Well, studies is just an excuse. Truth is I'm LAZY to look for a job. That leads to Money problems. So question i asked myself is, WHEN CAN I EARN 10K PER MONTH IF I DON'T LOOK FOR A FREAKING JOB THAT I CAN AT THE VERY LEAST EARN 1% OF IT?

Stupid and sTubborn, thats the way i am.. Haha..
I'm Bored!
and i miss her~

Time, it heals everything.

2009-08-20T05:15:00.000-07:00

Well.. Its been long since the last update.. =)
Mom's is better already.. Just botak.. cute..

Anyway.. I'm fine, if anyone cared..

Last night was a hell of a night.. 2 Bottles of Martell at Crazy Hours, then head to Sabai ended up with 4 bottles on the table.. 2 and a half bottles of Martells and a soon to finish hennesy.. WTF? Just drink La.. Thats what i thought.. But ended up.. I find myself lying outside of Sabai.. 3 of them had to drag me home by carrying me.. LOL! Totally wasted.. well.. it was a great night and many thanks to the bros that sent me home.. LOL..

Oh ya.. First time i sat in a GTR-35.. ROXOR..

ChemoTherapy

2009-04-23T08:14:00.000-07:00

ChemoTherapy

Anyway.. My mom has to go for ChemoTherapy.. So its kinda sad to hear that, but its for her own good.. Its better than having higher chances of the cancer to come back..

Oh ya.. Talking about the cancer..

Here's a picture of the Lump thats being cut out from her..

Well.. Lets talk about ChemoTherapy..

I know nothing much about this.. But ChemoTherapy its actually a therapy that would lessen the chance of having the cancer coming back.. As my mom's Cancer was stage 1, it may seem harmless.. But the Cancer cell itself is a Grade 3.. Grade 3 as in its a very AGGRESIVE one.. So, If she would've found out about this lump in her in after a few months.. The cancer would've reach Stage 3.. Lucky for her.. Which is a good thing.. Ok, back to ChemoTherapy.. As heard, the side effects after the therapy are Giddiness and LOSS of Hair.. But HAIR will grow after everything is done.. After kimo therapy she will have to go for some Radio smth stuff.. I heard its tough for the person undergoing it.. But mom is a very Strong person.. So she'll be fine.. =)

Hmm.. I guess tats all that i wanna say.. Would update more on the ChemoTherapy once i know more about it.. I'm not a doctor.. So, i won't know much.. If there's anything about chemotherapy you guys know and i'm wrong about it..
Please let me know.. As i wanna know more about it..
Thanks..

Leslie signing off..
Cherish everything you have, as Nothing is Forever.
Treasure loved ones and the people who love you.
You'll Never know when They will be gone and you will REGRET forever.
(Thank you Cheryl for the correction of spelling)

Smiles

2009-04-18T08:07:00.001-07:00

Well.. to peeps who worried for my mom.. Thanks alot.. She's fine now..
The cancer was a first stage.. luckily tat she found out early. It hasn't spread.. so thank god.. she just need to rest more and go for some checkups.. So ya..

ANYWAY.. SHE'S FINE.. thats wad we all need to know.. =)

Well.. I'm fine if anyone is wondering.. haven't blog for days.. as i'm busy with work and my mom not forgetting going out.. but.. i'll try to blog more.. LOL!

i guess thats all for now..

Leslie.. Signing off..
Thanks to my friends..
Mummy is fine.. =)

Ah ?

2009-04-09T08:56:00.001-07:00

Yawns

Have had a drunk night last night again~ OMG! reached home at 7:20 am, slept at 7:30 am on my sofa, woke up at 10:30 am (after i found out i am going to be late for work) till now.. i'm freaking shag!!

Why Must This Happen?!

My mom had a check up today after feeling that she had a lump on her left breast area.. She's going for an operation next week to remove it.. Doctor said that 90% possibility will be cancerous.. Pray hard that she'll be alright.. >.

Ma.. You'll be fine.. I'll stand by you..
Love ya..
Lets Get Through This Together..

to my friends who know my mom.. please pray for her to not have tat cancerous cell in her.. tho there's no confirm about the cancer..
i really hoped its not.. THANKS!!

=)

I won't be going out that often already.. As i don't wanna worry my mom too much..
=)

2009-04-05T09:49:00.001-07:00

well.. seen a blog worth sharing.. no comments abt it tho.. but worth looking at it..

www.garyng174.blogspot.com

Leslie out again!
Oh Carol, I am but a FOOL..

PISSED!!

2009-04-05T09:12:00.000-07:00

Darn ASS old f**ker

Don't think tat qualifications is a thing u use to make YOURSELF proud! You speak like one uncivilized small kid.. You don't even fucking know wads my education level and you wanna critisize me? So what if i don't have any qualifications? I'm still living a better life than u old fart!! If u have a qualification and u earn much more than me, then why the hell are u buying such a cheap phone?! If you are so "CLEVER" or maybe "SMART" enough to get a freaking paper and earning loads.. then GET YOURSELF A BETTER PHONE AND DON'T GET A FREE ONE..

LEMME TELL YOU THIS.. IF YOU THINK THAT A DEALER IS FUCKED UP OR BULLSHIT? YOU ARE WRONG.. ITS YOU AS A CUSTOMER NOT SHOWIN YOUR ATTITUDE TOWARDS US.. WE'RE FUCKING HUMANS.. PUT YOURSELF INTO OUR SHOES.. WHAT WOULD YOU DO? WHAT CAN YOU FUCKING DO?! SO, USE YOUR FUCKING BRAIN BEFORE YOU THROW YOUR WEIGHT AROUND MY FUCKING SHOP.. ONE MORE TIME AND I'LL LOSE MYSELF ON YOU!

I HOPE YOU DIE EARLY AND NO ONE WILL EVER PRAY FOR YOU

GET A FREAKING LIFE OLD FART.. THIS SHALL BE A CURSE FOR YOU!

JUST YOU!!

I am damn freaking pissed off by this uncle..

Leslie signing off..

the future's not ours' to see.. que sera sera

what will be, will be

Argh!!

2009-04-04T08:39:00.000-07:00

Darn!!!

What is happening to me nowadays?? I feel so lost.. Drinking has been a very bad habit for me now.. Smoking too much till i can't take it sometimes.. Find myself dazing in the middle of the day..

OhWell!!

guess life still have to go on yea ?

Went out with Warlton, Duoni, Kenny, Ee meng and Willie.

Well.. Drank like crazy again.. Got drunk and acting like a small kid..

Asked kenny to get number from the pub girl.. Tats not something tat i would even DO!!

Well.. Lucky enuff she didn't give.. HAA!!

Anyway..

Its just another night of Fun and Laughters..

As usual, i'm the one Opening my mini Concert in the Pub.. Coz THEY don't wanna sing at all!!

Well.. tat doesn't mean tat everyone would hear me sing.. i guess.. NO ONE was interested.. LOL!

But!!

I found out something.. My singing is getting better and better.. WOAHAHAHA!!

OPPS!

Leslie Signing off now.

Que Sera Sera~ wadeva will be will be~

Oh Well..

2009-04-02T09:05:00.000-07:00

03/04/09

Today will be the day i start blogging again.

Haven't been blogging since i deleted my previous Blog due to somethings.

OHWELL..

i'm fine i guess thats all i can say.. i'm still me.. the lovely, funloving, mischievious and not forgetting HANDSOME guy u might have known.. =X

Still working in that shop at parkway. Nth much have happened these days.. just some drinking sessions with different peoples.. weird eh ? Haa..

guess i haven't change abit..

my new loves